You cannot battle the ego. When you take a step in the direction of disabling this part of the personality it too takes a step down with you. It is the shadow that encases you making you think that the light at the end of the tunnel will blind you. Every time you attempt to disable the ego the issues that bring you pain or misery in life you are now starving the ego of its feed, its air to breath and regenerate. Bear in mind that all of these personality traits have been accumulated over a vast period of time and may take some time to unravel their chaotic nature. This is perfectly normal and once started, you have begun to plant the natural seed of your true personality's flower amongst a garden of weeds. Let the child make his mistakes, let the child experience his love loss and pain. Where adults are concerned, for most people it is often only when they fall far down enough into the deep darkness of their own torture that they can ever really rise up and conquer their own fears and self - but it doesn’t have to be this way.